[About Me]

the rambling teenage girl

[22 wishes]

i am 22 after all

Assalamualaikum,

I just got my result on last Wednesday, the result of cardiovascular-respiratory system. It was kinda saddest thing ever happened to me. I cried and wondered, so much -still thinking after woke up on the next morning. That is not the very me. Seriously.

I know my ability just average, as the result came out. Its the saddest when I being the lowest among my closest. Before this, I am always get the best, or at least in the middle. This the first time, and suddenly I argued -inside my mind of course, why wouldn't be her and her? They always been the best, the well known and the most famous. They said they afraid of being the best, but for the sake of honesty, do they know the feeling of being unlucky?

Hatred filled the atmosphere.

Yes, I'm being jealous. I don't happy of what my dears got.

Allah's planning is so beautiful and great. The day after is Ma'al Hijrah. Its the day of when our prophet, Muhammad peace be upon him initiated the 'hijrah' to other city -Madinah.

So, here, we have been invited to go to the forum held by the Student Council.

As the talk goes and bla bla bla..

*flipped the notes*

I got seated on the back -its really BACK, last line in the back.

What most absorbed by my ugly and dirty heart is the friendship. How wise should us select a good friends to get to know Islam better and we are allowed to leave the friends that are not 'useful' for reaching The Paradise. That thingys slapped on my face. My complexion turns red, maybe.

Am I a good friend? A nice sister?

Poor me! :(

The best friendship should never been like mine -the jealousy and etc.

The result is another thing. I suddenly argued my Allah, so bad of me. :(

Allah has give me a lots of gifts in reaching this second -even while writing this post.

I am suddenly become greedy and unconsciously blame The Creator. Please forgive me Ya Allah.. :'(

Today, I just attended a ta'lim which opened my eyes wider -my heart too. Thanks Allah for letting me to come into Your love again..

I realize that all this is to teach me one important lesson, whatever comes in the future, it should makes me closer to Him. Its Him who planned, and His planned is the best for me. I don't wanna let all the chances to return to Him being wasted. All things come from Him and I should return to Him..

I am now renewing the 'nawaitu'.. Everyone should do the same too.

:)




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